[[翠雯の部落格]]

Monday, April 25, 2011

The alignment at play today may make you feel like covering your hurt feelings with an act of defiant bravado. If you and the lower life form that dared to give you that push end up accidentally meeting today, then you will not be the one to rush over, face wet with tears, begging for forgiveness. In fact you will be inclined to let them know that they are the least of your worries.

christine.
13:58

Friday, November 5, 2010

hellooo people!
u guys still here??
im doing great in nilaii (;
i haf my first tattooo on the 1st of november as a bday present for myself...
yoohooo!
but i dont dare to show my mum tho, she'l kill me ba >.<
if she can accept, i wish to show her lorrr.. zzzz...
aight, its time to sleep now, its already 7 in the morning...
niteeeeeeeeeeeee!!
*hugs n kisses* to all of u.

christine.
06:38

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

i dont think im really "okay" now.

like, seriously..

i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me today.

easily get pissed off.

AND IM STILL PISSED NOW!

what's going on?!?

);

christine.
23:44

Monday, August 23, 2010

this time i really blame myself.

i blame myself for being so fucking useless..

i cant bare to see all this happen anymore..

i felt annoyed when i stay at home..

im worry of my mum if im not at home..

wtf?

what the fuck am i supposed to do now?

why..

why mama haf such a useless daughter like me..

i cant do anythng for her..

mama..

im so sorry..

vry vry sorry..

i oways ask u to give me times..

but i disappoint u again and again..

);

again and again.....

);

and this time, i do not dare to ask u to give me some times..

because..

i haf no confident to be successful in this line..

in this new environment..

this new job...

i hate u, mama.

i hate u for worrying too much..

until u fell sick..

and u just keep quiet..

i hate u for protecting me too well..

and now when i hafto face the wider society,

i felt afraid..

stop treating me like a princess!!

treat yourself better!!!!

CAN U?!?

); );

mama. i love u..

i want to protect u too..

but im not able to do so now..

and i hope u can protect yourself better..

please stop worrying bout me..

i beg u!!

i'll take care of myself nicely..

i promise u..

);

christine.
23:33

Sunday, August 22, 2010

its not the matter of disappointing anyone anymore..

BUT, its looking down by someone...

sighs...

i just dont understand why people have to look down on people hurh?

feeling stress now..

in this 21 years, this is my first time moving out..

working outstation and not staying with family..

i've no experience at all..

and im afraid of darkness..

i love to cry for even a small thing...

do u think people like this can stay alone outside?

hmph..

im afraid..

im so so afraid now..

im afraid to disappoint baobei..

im afraid to disappoint my mum and dad,

mum keep on worry about me since that day i told her that i'll be moving out..

and also,

dont want those people who look down on me,

CONTINUE looking down on me..

wtf?!?

sighs.. what am i supposed to do, to look back the confidence that i used to haf..

long long time i cant find it in me already..

when will it come back to me?

);

christine.
01:04

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Im gonna leave Atoz soon le..

tomoro is my last day here..

gonna miss u guys..

a lot!! (;

me heart atoz!

tata atoz..

tata howe howe..

tata kang kang..

tata neong neong..

tata kala mai mike..

tata kala jay jay..

tata kala hong hong..

tata cyrus..

tata khin soe..

tata khine min..

tata kelvin "manyzer"..

tata mr.goh...

christine.
17:07

Saturday, August 14, 2010

recently im so addicted to this song.

this song always always always makes me think of my grandma.

i really miss my grandma a lot );

i wonder if shes doing good now...

wai po, u ok mah?

do u still remember me?

do u miss me? im missing u T_T.

wai po, i'll be moving to nilai nex week..

i hope evrythng will be alright...

i hope evrythng goes smooth o..

and by that time, i can go home and see u often le..

clean up the house so that when u go home,

u feel comfortable =)

waipo i miss and love u..

*love*

christine.
13:31

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME TODAY?
OMFG.
WHERE IS EVERYONE?
WHERES JAYSON BAOBEI?WHERES SETYEE DEAR?WHERES MANDY BABE?
EVERYONE IS SO BUSY WITH THEIR MATTERS..
AND IM STILL ALL ALONE HERE..
WHY AM I ALONE?
WHY?!?!?!?

); ); ); ); );

I HATE GASTRICS I HATE GASTRICS I HATE GASTRICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK OFF PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

christine.
21:40

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

the most important people in my life,

*other then my mami and daddi*..

is Jayson (; bAobei.

we can be sisters,

we can be brothers,

we can be good frens,

we can be whatever we want XD

the only thing that we failed to be is,

enemy.

i lovee Baobei Jayson!

i must have him in my life.

No matter is happy/unhappy problems facing.

thank god for sending such a cute fella to me.

(;

christine.
14:36

Monday, August 9, 2010

Met up with Winney, Eileen and Munmun last Friday.
The whole session we're like eating and sharing each other's stories (;
Relax and enjoyable.
After having dinner in WonGKok, we went for some desserts at Kim Gary. haha..
So long nvr meet up with 3 of them,
Feelin so excited and happy to have this meet up (;

Hope to meet again before Munmun fly back to Vancouver again.
*hugs*

christine.
01:48

Friday, August 6, 2010

承認吧　對我還有好多感覺　只是你不敢再虧欠
要不就這樣算了吧　就這樣散了吧　至少你不會辜負了她
這些我都從無埋怨　先給愛的人並不可憐
早知道最後的結局　墮落的分離　我是有理由不死心塌地

我當然不恨你　也從來不怨你　會試著不想你
雖然是曾經也是唯一　若要忘記　兩三年就可以
我打算不見你　也決計不尋你　也已經不想你
只要是偶爾回首過去　在記憶裡　還有甜蜜　能這樣就可以


请你别再告诉我说你还有多爱我了。。
因为不管怎样，我还是比不上她。。。
在你告诉我你还爱着我的同一时间，
你也在爱着她。。
请问，有哪一个女生是能接受自己所爱的人，
也爱着别人？
很抱歉，我并没有这么大方。。。。

竟然我们都已经决定了分手，
你也已经公告全世界你多么想和她在回一起，
也告诉了我在和我一起的时候，
从来都没有放弃过她，
而她也没放弃过你，
这就已经足够伤害我了。。
因为我跟你在一起的时候，
我心理并没有挤着另一个人。。
而你，
有了我还要有她 (;
我不明白，为什么开始一起的时候讲的故事，
和现在分开后的故事，
是差这么远？
我开始怀疑你在说谎了。。。
我更不明白，为什么你们从来都没有放过彼此，
可是却要和我在一起？

问心吧，其实我并没有伤害你啊。。
是你自己乱想而已，
你自己很清楚我和宝贝的关系~
你自己要拿来吃醋而已~
不过分开了也还好。。
至少，你可以去追回你的她，
我再也不会成为你们之间的阻碍啊~
我也可以过回我的生活。。

在一起，真的很辛苦~~

现在你我都自由了。。
只是希望你再也别告诉我，
你还有多爱我。。
因为这些都已经不重要了。。。

到目前为止，
我发现，
全世界，就只有我爸爸妈妈和宝贝不会伤害我吧？
fuck the relationships,
fuck the loves,
fuck everyone upside down,
fuck the whole world,
fuck.
fuck off!

o0o

christine.
10:13

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

终于，一切都解决了 =)
John终于决定离开我了。。
是我逼成的吧。。
我真的希望我并没有伤害到你哦。。。

从现在开始，
我又是一个人了。。

也希望我们可以一直成为朋友，
因为拥有你这位朋友，我觉得很高兴 (:

礼拜天就要去面试了。。
希望一切顺利，赶快搬走。。
留在这里觉得很烦。。
搬去一个人的地方，一个人生活，静静的过，
我觉得会比较开心耶。。
至少，我要安静的时候，会是安静的，
我要吵的时候，还有电脑陪着我 XD

加油~

christine.
23:04

Friday, July 30, 2010

假如，KLIA的那份工，请了我，
那么我就要离开这里了。。
会搬到汝来住。。

其实，我越来越对你没有感觉了。。
现在在回一起只是要避免尴尬，
毕竟，我们都是在同一个mall工作。。
很抱歉，都是我的错。。
一开始就不应该在一起。。
我们一点都不适合。。
我根本就不适合谈这样的恋爱。。
当初会跟你在一起，是因为新鲜感而以吧。。
可是，我是真的有喜欢过你哦。。
只是，你不是我要为你付出的那个人。。。

我真的觉得我很坏，原来，我真的会伤害到你。。
我是一个很自私的人。。
我真的不懂如何开口劝你别再爱我了。。
因为我真的不值得你这么爱我，对我这么好。。
你的爱让我觉得很压力，你的好让我觉得难以呼吸。。。
太紧了，太over protective了。。
刚刚开始是会觉得幸福，
但，现在已经变成反感了。。。
我对你有点厌倦，有点反感了。。。

对不起，可能一个月后我就要离开这里了。。
我不忍心伤害你。。
不忍心跟你提分手了。。
你告诉过我，你没被拒绝过。。
那么这次，我也让你保持不被拒绝的状态来分开吧。。
我会给你机会拒绝我。。。

在留下的这一个月里面，我会尝试好好的跟你创造美好的回忆，
留给你 (:
这是我唯一能够为你做的事情。。。
唯一能留给你的就只剩下回忆。。
我真的太残忍了。。。
);

christine.
15:05

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

and now, we're back together (:

i hope evrythng's gonna change..
become better..
and then the best..
hopefully theres no more arguement..
else,
i wont hesitate to give up..
once again...

christine.
00:43

Sunday, July 25, 2010

始终还是过不到我们的first month anniversary。
没什么话想说，

我们都没错，只是不适合。
误会又深深的。。
分开也是件好事 =)
是我不适合你。。
希望你可以找到更好的 ^^

goodbye baby, hope u will found a better one.
to take care of you.
and i still love u. (:
but,theres too much of misunderstood between us..
wht else can i do and say?
we shall stop it ba (:

christine.
00:55

Thursday, July 22, 2010

and now i realize, being in a relationship is actually very very tiring.

expecially when u have to explain

where u want to go,

with who u're going out with,

what time u're supposed to be right home,

and to be afraid whether your partner is gonna be jealous/angry

with whoever u're going out with.

Im really not willing to change everything that i have now,

just because to make my partner happy.

Im not that good, to sacrifice myself just to make my partner happy, im sorry.

That is so not my attitude.

I love what im having now.I really do.

And no matter what, i want to maintain it this way. (:

I really hope u know what i mean,

as i never want u to change whatever u're having now too..

Im putting my trust on you too..

If u trust me,then we'll stay.

If u dont trust me, then we'll say byebye to each other.

Im ok with anything.

U will hafto make the choice.

But i just want u to know,

I love u.

If i dont love u, i wouldnt be together with u.

But please, dont make me tired.

I really feel uncomfortable now as i need to worry if u're angry, *everyday*.

christine.
12:03

Saturday, July 17, 2010

我开始看到我们的之间慢慢的，出现问题了。。
当初，很快就走在一起了。。
根本就不了解对方。。
可是现在我开始觉得有点breathless了。。
你真的好幼稚哦。。
我快受不了了。。。
我自己也累个半死了，还要服侍你。。
怎样哦？？？？？

真的要每天斗嘴，每天吵架才开心吗？
我一直都很迁就你耶，可是你都一很得意这样，
不会理会别人的感受吗？！？
说你两句就在那边小气，生气。。
怎样沟通哦？？？？
sighs。。
我真的很累咯！！
累到看到你都不想说话的感觉~
可以改善一点点吗？！

christine.
23:01

Monday, July 12, 2010

我发现。。
原来你真的很爱把我藏起来。。。

为什么？？

你总是故意的把我藏起来。。
不让你的前女友看见。

为什么？？

我不出声不代表我不介意。
而是，我不懂得怎么去问。。

为什么？！？

christine.
02:12

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

又到了部落格时候啦 (:
今天有点被bibi气到小气了。。
哎。。。
我现在小气得好想哭。。 T_T
不是完全因为bibi气我。。
而是这两天有太多太多的不爽和情绪，
埋在心中，说不出话来。。。
所以很想哭。。
jayson宝贝。。你在哪里？
我需要你来逗我开心。。。

刚刚在冲凉的时候，冲了超级久，自己都没发觉。。
因为就一直想东想西的。。
我现在的幸福，带着一点点的苦苦的感觉。。。
你知道那种感觉吗？
好复炸哦。。
我自己也confuse了。。。
心里觉得很不安。。
因为觉得很没有安全感。。。
bibi是万人迷 T_T
身边有太多太多的美女朋友了。。。
还要告诉我谁人跟他表白啊，
还要给我看照片~
真的有够美的。。。。

我都不知道要给bibi什么反应~~~~~
突然之间。。。。我的信心又再次的漂走了。。。
我整个人，感觉好像缩起来了。。
不想笑，不想说话。。。
笑的时候也都超级假。。。
好假哦 T_T 。
好累。。。。

宝贝 im missing u ):

christine.
22:52

Sunday, July 4, 2010

thank god for sending u to me.
i feel so happy to haf u in my life..
u're so sweet and nice..
and i loveeeee u so much ya bibi =)
i dont care what everyone says..
i dont care how other people look at us..
what i care is, u care about me and im happy with it (:
being honestly, i've never felt the love like this before..
i've never met a partner like u before..
thanks for evrythng u've done for me..
altho the time being together is not very long.
but i can see it clearly.. =)
thanks bibi!
i lovee u so much..
i dont care how long can we last..
at least i appreciate now.. i appreciate evrythng that u've done for me..
u appreciate me and i appreciate u..
*love*!

我很幸福！我真的很幸福。
如果这段恋情是被应许的，
我多么想告诉全天下的人，
我现在是多么的幸福呢 =)
kang说: 开朗的christine终于回来了。。
谢谢 (: 我也感觉到，“我回来了。”
bibi谢谢你哦。。

每天能够看见你的笑容，
就是我工作的力量 (:
*害羞*
谢谢你总是为我着想。。
即时是委屈自己都肯牺牲。。
我好感动哦 (:
你真的好好噢。。。
我好爱你 ^^

christine.
00:17